Crossroads, again

Dear Anyone...

I have reached another crossroad. Why another??? Are you testing me? Please stop.

Woke up this morning to get a phonecall saying my CV is with this producer and they are only looking for Scottish based trainees - I'm the only one in the company - but it starts late August and lasts for 4 weeks. It was would be awesome to work on it and be back on track with the filming industry in UK, however, I feel morally responsible that my friend got me a job abroad.

To be honest, the job isn't really that fantastic and I'm wasting their time as much as mines. Plus they are aware that I want to work in film production not in a film school, therefore know that the school would only be a stepping stone for me to meet people (network).

I want to so cry because I'm tired...I moved away from home and now there is a chance I will need to relocate back. I'm not made out of money.

Sad little swan.