5 months on

Dear Time,

Last time I blogged was in July and since then I guess, a lot of happened. I never realised until a friend asked me what's been happening to me in the past year... I couldn't answer. Not because I wasn't proud but quite honestly, it hasn't been a good year for me and in a sense it has been because of the downs. (All about the balance).

So let's see what has happened.

• My own family bullied me to fix my Uncle's lack of input, unfinsihed projects and mistakes so I left and I was deemed childish. My own mother didn't even bother to contact me, instead she just shouted at me for not helping yet it was fine that her own brother who got them all in a mess to do nothing or fix it. Family Politics has what turned into a Stewing Pot of Gravy. What's family without the drama?
• Had the best job ever - worked on Commonwealth 2014 wtih Sky Sports. I never thought highly of myself but the Sky team gave me a promotion! I didn't do much. Most definitely a confident boost.
• At this high point, I pummetted into the low point as I found out that my best friend past away. (50p Backstory) This was during the Commonwealth 2014 and I was given a 50p by a colleague. It was His missing 50p... He was such a good person, always had the time to listen to my problems whether it be via lunch or whatsapp there was always time. I remember when he was running late and I knew he had a meeting later so I told him that we could reschedule because I knew lateness leads to being flustered therefore not good for meetings but he insisted because "if we reschedule then it will constantly be rescheduled and meeting with friends is more important". Most importantly, we shared our problems and he valued me in many aspects as a person, academic colleague and friend. He was actually another person who thought I would do much more with myself but nonetheless he never commented on my strays because I was a happy. Now, I feel a bit lost, who do I go to?
• Got my own flat. It's quite a bit lonely but I do like my space. Mechanic Boy keeps moving my stuff!!!
• Scooter/ Moped is my best Flatmate. The adventure we had was hilarious mainly because it was illegal across the board and reflecting back - how daring was I! Now I'm stripping it naked and so I'm learning about each part. The guys at work has given me tips about it.
• In a new job which links back to my academic background. It's very interesting but the company is such a mess. As well as being stressful because of the non-existence of any structure, it gives me the opportunity to put in place of my ideas and knowledge. In addition, there's quite a bit of career opportunity for me so the future is bright and obviously up to me to do something. I just need to put a plan in place. To be honest, everything leads to something its whether you want that path. End of the day, I enjoy it and I actually find the problem quite interestingly challenging and really up for it.
• Had two bumps with the car, both times not my fault. Scary stuff. All sorted though.
• Not been sleeping well. It's all good now because I know why therefore I know how to fix it.
• Realised that compared to friends I know quite a bit about maintaining vehicles and insurance, etc., I worry about them at times especially what they do. Previously, I thought I looked bad because I have a wealth of experience but career-wise, I haven't got it compared to them. Turns out that experience can't be compared, we are all independant in our own ways.

I guess that's about it. To answer my friend's question: what I have been up to the past year, is that I've had quite an emotional experience.

Apparently 2015 doesn't get better for me.


Help me maintain a positive attitude.