Why has November flew in? I can't even remember what I've done. Most importantly, I haven't done the stuff I really want to get done- mainly, gutting out the crap in the house. It has to be done, especially when the two hoarders bought more stuff. Logically, when something is damaged or broken and you buy a replacement, you throw out the old. Apparently, not, with those two. Keep it. Such attachment. It has no use. The purpose is over. Life mission has been completed. Now stop taking up a space!
Back on to monthly update. Yes a lot has happened across all aspects.
1. I didn't get the job that I wanted. Knew it. Can't always have what you want and when I do get it, turns out it isn't so great. Hence, I stop wanting. It's not really the Want which disappoints me, it's when I build up this ideal of when I get what I want. Dreaming is what creates my disappointment. Naturally, I wanted to runaway having been rejected. Ridiculous, I know. I don't have a fear of rejection, it's when things don't turn out the way I imagine. Hence, no more dreaming, go with the flow.
2. Where I am working is just fine. The culture is very old-fashioned- customers are not always right. Giving them what they want only makes us, the employees look stupid, make us feel humiliated and plainly incompetent. However, I do enjoy my colleagues company and having a laugh with certain customers.
3. My colleagues from previous work came in to visit me. Usually when I leave a place it's just the end of the book an it's thrown to the bottom of the pile and forgotten. With this place, I think I have done something right. I actually formed good relationships possibly real relationships (who saved my butt for this short film).
(Totally forgot about this so I think this month is a merge of November and December.)
4. Love life? Things are moving nicely. It was unexpected. It's all a bit weird. Good weird though. We have pretty much nothing in common but I think our personality compliment each other in a good fit way even though we have opposite ways of doing things and thinking. Weird, I know. It works in a bizarre way. Not going to question it.
5. Once my contract is over. I'm not going to bother with looking for another job. I'm taking proper time out. It's not going to be like the time I left and went abroad. I'm going to properly take a break and just work on some "issues". In my head, I've been chasing this expectation but it's not my life, not everyone are meant to meet the same milestones at the same point in life. I do believe that there are some milestones I'm not suppose to have so why am I trying to meet it when it's obviously not right for me. Hence, I'm going to just readjust and be me. Do the things I have been meaning to do.
That's all for just now.
And thank you for the unexpected present.
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