Dear Painful Ears,
Apologies for once again going on about my turmoil.
I am, indeed back home as I believe the move was not right - it was a country going through political changes which obliviously filters through and will only make me move up and down on that ladder. Overall, it does feel like I have been cheated to go but at least I managed to enjoy fabulous office dramas!!
More importantly, I disagree with their work ethnics. A production was looking for a production assistant so I put myself forward only to find out it was unpaid for at least two weeks. I declined. Regretted it? Slightly because it could possibly lead to something. However, a professional said, "if you knew you were going to need a production assistant then it should have been in the budgeting. Obviously, not done budgeting properly if you are now looking to fill a position for free." (Not the exact words but that was what she was meaning).
Key Point: if you are going to get work/ service from an employee then pay them fairly. Calling it work experience/ intern because of lack of funding is the same as child labour.
Reflections. I hate them but perhaps avoidance has got me to this state. Last night it occured to me that I have no skills, I am not qualified for any career. And so, I have created a dead end for myself.
Key Point: it is good to know a bit of everything but fluffiness doesn't build a foundation for a house.
Once again, I thought about giving up on Film & Television which means I am a statistics. Apparently from research and reviews, potential new entrants and women are discouraged to enter into this industry and consequently leads to a shortage in the future. But then, am I stubbornly wanting to enter this industry just to prove that it is possible for women to have a career in it?
Key Point: don't question yourself, it only leads to more unanswerable questions.
I have no plans because that's all my life is going to be - plans. It is the same as saying "I will try" - that is what you did "try". Plus, with plans there's deadlines, don't be a slave to time.
Just now I feel like I have left a part of my soul somewhere.
Come back to me, please....
Just my 2 cents... I don't really know what's happened recently, but I want you to know you do have skills, you are qualified for a career and you are not at a dead end.
ReplyDeleteI have to say, you are one of the best leaders I know. You know what you want and at least you will have some idea of how to achieve it. You will bring these ideas to your members and push them through. And that kind of skill is very valuable and not something everyone has. Not everyone can learn, you have it or you don't. Something worth more than any qualification.
I think it is a shame you feel this way, cause you are actually able and potential. You are smart, quick to learn and driven.
Yes, perhaps it hasn't worked out this time round, but who can make the right decisions all the time? And cmon, you're wanting to get into the Film and TV industry, notorious for being tough.
Don't get disheartened and definitely don't give up. You're still young. In a way, you still have 40 years of employment potential. Are you going to sit and wait for something to come at you for 40 years? May be don't plan you life, it normally doesn't go to plan anyway, but at least try.
Become stronger, pick yourself up and keep going. May be Film and TV wasn't for you, but you have another 40 years to figure something out. If you don't try, you'll never get anywhere.
Take care.
Thank you!!
ReplyDeleteAll has been restored. xxx