Freaking Out

Dear Guidance,

7 days left. I freaked out during the early mornings of today. It all started when my friend said that I could have a skype interview rather than fly over, it would have been amazing as I wouldn't be abruptly leaving my life and seeing where things take me.

Logic: why the hell are you leaving your life for something you don't know? It's nothing to do with a guarantee, it's leaving and walking into darkness, gods know how and when you will find the light switch.

Instinct: You use your instinct, trial and error to find the light switch. For this there were too many good coincidence. You work in town and to find a parking space near work is a mission. You see a space but you don't take it, you see another but, again, you go pass it. Then around the corner, there is another - it's actually two spaces so you can just drive - you take it! When you feel that everything it helping you to go for something you don't know, go for it.

Well, I had a look at the jobs available and yes, I freaked out!! I read the requirements - F*&^%!! I can barely speak the language nevermind typing it. (What the hell am I thinking that I would be able to a job! I can't even get a job in my home country and I'm trying for something completely different). My good friend, Mr Skinny basically said, "surely when you look back there are some things you thought were impossible to do but you do". I'm thinking, "yup, you are right, I'm still trying to fly".

Just breathe. If I can drive a van and not die or crash, I can do this.

Breathe... the seed will be fine.